This RP takes place after Karaul's gentling, and it is a scene where Coliena goes to speak with him, show him that he at least has one friend in the Tower.

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Coliena Sedai of the Brown Ajah
Karaul, a 'gentle' man

Karaul sits in one of the numerous chairs, feet propped up on a table as his eyes /slowly/ peruse through a sizable bit of reading. Glancing back he offers a quick grin, "Long time no see Sedai." he says, turning back to his reading.

Coliena peeks in, smiles at the young man, "I've been a little busy. I had to document some ter'angreal for a Brown Sitter." She enters and closes the door behind her, "What are you reading?"

Karaul smirks, "Maybe I'll find the time to read about it. The words are still hard on my eyes though." he frowns gently, yet perks out a quick chuckle for a moment, "It's about the breaking." he says, calmly, yet elaborating no further.

Coliena raises an eyebrow, "The Breaking? Ah. Very sad time to be studing, no? I much perfer the Age of Legends and the Ten Nations, things like that." She moves to take a seat. "Have the Sisters been treating you well?"

Karaul nods slowly as he listens, going over a sentence as he does, which finally forces him to decide reading and speaking isn't working, laying it down open before him, "Indeed, but everyone still insist I don't know the first thing about my kind." he sighs, moving his eyes to her, "It depends on who's definition of well you seek." he smiles softly with a chuckle, obviously having learned to either accept those feelings, or hide them.

Coliena sighs, smoothing her skirts, "Do not worry about 'your kind.' The past is the past, and it should remain that way. The past may be remembered, but it should not be dewelled on. Now is what you should worry about." She doesn't smile at the last part and says serious, "I want your defination of 'well'. Have the Sisters been treating you well?" she asks again.

Karaul grins, nodding at her words, "True, but I still wish to be able to tell all that I do understand what I speak of." he chuckles, shrugging softly at her last question, "I ask you to remember I never sought this curse upon me now, and still vehemenently disagree to it's use. And those who speak with me, more or less ignore me, or gag me so as to stop my words." he shrugs again, still a slight grin on his face, "But I am fed, and have better comfort then the dungeons..." he says, trailing off slightly as he glances about the room.

Coliena shakes her head, "Well you will get none of that from me. I respect what everyone has to say, so do not be afraid of speaking your piece around me. All right?"

Karaul sighs softly, looking over the woman slowly as if trying to remember her old reactions to him, before raising a hand slightly and nodding, "I shall try to take your word for it Sedai. Yet I warn you, I've learned to hold my tongue." he says, lowering his hand as he chuckles softly.

Coliena sighs, "There's a saying in Ebou Dar. 'Lean back on your dagger and let your tongue fly free.' or something of the such. Since they duel so often, it is usually over the slightest insult. If someone says that sentance, that means nothing said will be taken as such. So around me consider that your tongue may fly free. I will not get angry. Even if you call me a daughter of a cow, or a Trolloc's harlot. I will not be offended." This Brown sure can be odd at times.

Karaul chuckles softly, eyes returning to perceive the woman yet again as he lets a smile settle on his face, "I've called Sedai Darkfriends, or at least unwitting ones. So I guess I'm not too far off." he grins, glancing at the pages of his book again as he speaks, "Do you truly feel that gentling..." the word still seems to taste bad on his tongue, "...is the only thing that can be done for a man such as me?" he says, eyes returning to his as he looks for an answer.

Coliena looks right back, then shakes her head, "Honestly, no. But don't let the Reds hear that, or most the other Sisters, or I'll never hear the end of it."

Karaul smiles, nodding lightly as he barely notices the last line, chuckling softly as his eyes dart back to the book before him, "Maybe we can speak about it sometime, for I've been reeled by the Red's at the mere mention." he sighs, though a grin still sitting on his face.

Coliena grins, "I can imagine." She smooths her skirts again, "Anything else you'd like to talk about? Have you been keeping that journal like I asked? Even if you could only scribble a few words?"

Karaul smirks, gesturing over to a small stack of papers and inkwell at his endtable, "Indeed, it helps keep me sane in the wee hours of night. I don't sleep too often, and not too well. So I hope it helps you, although I still debate the merit of a book about me." he chuckles, shaking his head lightly.

Coliena shrugs, "I see no reason why a book about you would not be valuable. And think of this as a way to get your opinion out. Show the world that all male channelers are not monsters from a story. They are people as well. They were born, raised in a family, and they can cry, feel pain, and die. Just like the rest of us. And anyway... if the journal has anything to do with keeping you alive longer then it is a good thing."

Karaul grins, offering another shrug as if he heard few of her words, yet it is evident he did as he tries to avert his eyes down to his book again, "It is nice to know that at least one person here cares, even an ounce, to know about me. Most just leave their opinion on the fact that I've touched Saidin." he sighs, running a finger along the pages, "I've had many ideas passed to me about how to keep myself alive, yet I fear I have found none." he sighs, shaking off any further words.

Coliena nods, "Do not worry. You will find one. Likely before you realize it, you will have more reason to live then you ever imagined. Just keep that attitude and you will do fine." Her voice is very motherly at the moment.

Karaul shrugs, "I, as always, have my doubts. Yet will remember what you said, and hope for the day you can remind me that you said it." he chuckles, "I fear that if anything destroys me, it will be the fact that so many will be punished for merely approaching me." he sighs softly.

You say "The rule the Mistress of Novices put into effect? Yes, it is quite unfair. But you should really be glad for it. Many of the Novices and Accepted would treate you worse than most the full sisters would.""

Karaul says "I would not doubt that fact Sedai, yet the Red's treat me like the tower dog, who needs to learn the truth. The...gaidin?..and trainees see me as a troublemaker. It would ease the chances of me finding someone who will actually see me for who I am."

Coliena tilts her head, "So you just want people, or at least someone, to see you as you are? Well that I can do. Yes, that I can do quite well. But if I am not enough, I am sure some others will see you as a person."

Karaul sighs, "Thank you Sedai. It eases an already tried mind. Morillin Sedai insists I am still a blind fool of a man." he chuckles, remembering a moment in his mind, "Maybe it wasn't wise of me to say the same of her as a woman. It got me gagged fairly swiftly." he smirks, with a light shake of his head.

Coliena laughs loudly, "Oh. Morillin is a witless child at times. I've had my differences with her myself. But remember her bite is worse than anything else. She's a good deal stronger in the power than I am..." she trails off and shakes her head, "Not that that matters. I remember when she was a Novice."

Karaul smirks, eyes letting it be known he wishes he could see that sight, "Indeed, I would have to agree with you. She too often does not consider any words but her own, so I doubt ever shall change her ways." he sighs with a light grin, "How long might I ask have you been under the scrutiny of these walls?"

Coliena tilts her head, as if counting the years in her head, "About.. twenty-three years, I think. Give or take a month or two."

Karaul thinks for a moment then nods, "I can only dream of lasting so long." he smirks, turning his attention to her completely again, "So might I ask what brought you to see a broken man such as me? Mere curiousity as to how I might be doing?"

Coliena shakes her head, "Not mere curiousity. I would have came earlier, but as I said, I had to do something for a Brown Sitter. I am genuinely conserned about you."

Karaul shrugs, obviously having a hard time truly beleiving her, yet accepting the answer all the same, "I have yet to attempt to kill myself, yet with the aid of a less-then attentive Accepted had a cooking knife in my possession for a day or two." he says, shrugging softly as his eyes find his book again, "So I guess there need not be much concern to my physical being."

Coliena sighs, "Then don't worry about them at all. If they don't care, then let it be that way. Most the people in the Tower, sad to say, only care about themselves."

Karaul chuckles, "Ah, but you are wrong Sedai. I am cared about above all, for the humanitarian deed of gentling me was done." he smirks disgustadly, and full of sarcasm. He finally reverts to a small frown, "I am trying to learn to live in a place where one of hundreds even gives a mere good thought to me."

Coliena smooths her skirts, unsure what to say to that.

Karaul raises a hand, "There is nothing to say to that Sedai, so worry not in finding words." he says, offering a light smile, "Might I ask you a question regarding some reading?"

Coliena smiles and sits up, "Of course you can, ask away, Karaul. What do you wish to know?"

Karaul smiles, thinking for a moment as he leans forward slightly, "Hopefully it is not too difficult, and I ask you too be careful to keep the answer within my grasp. Ideas always have a hard time finding root in my mind." he chuckles, continueing, "Do you beleive that all the 'lost knowledge' of the power, might come back with the return of male's in the tower?"

Coliena tilts her head, "I will try to keep it simple... But not exactly. I think that some of it would come back. Some of it has recently come back without male channelers involved. Other's may come back more quickly with men. So possibly."

Karaul nods slowly, adding a few of his own comments, "I merely ask, because, especially during the 'ceremony'...." his calm voice subtly ooses disgust as he remembers, "I noticed that you all can collect your strength together. And I've read that some of the greatest feets required men and women together." he says, nodding quickly as if reaffirming it to himself.

Coliena nods, "Yes, many of the greatest feets in the Age of Legends required men and women working together."

Karaul chuckles softly, tapping the words before him, "This touches on the idea lightly, being mostly depressing, as you said before." he grins, "What aspect of the Age of Legends would you suggest I tackle?"

Coliena tilts her head, "An aspect. Let us see... Why don't you try researching Collam Daan maybe?

Karaul smiles as he nods, "As I shall. Are they he or she?" he chuckles softly, trying to remember the name as he listens.

Coliena laughs, "It's a great research college. It was built of glass, likely with the one Power, and it was a sphere that floated in the air, supported by nothing."

Karaul sneers playfully at her, "Yes then....." he says, letting it settle in his mind, "Now, is there anything of my present life you wish to know?" he says, leaning forward gently.

Coliena humms thoughtfully, "Are your dreams bad? If you want I can weave a ward each night so your dreams will not bother you." Assuming that your dreams are unnatural.

Karaul sighs, shaking his head slowly, "My dreams are that of a man with a tortured mind." he says, letting out a deep breath, "I thank you for the offer, but it may be best for me to face them." he says with a small grin.

Coliena sighs and nods, "I wish there was something I could do, but if you ever want to talk about your dreams, just ask. I'm willing to listen." She stands up and smooths her skirts, "But I am afraid I have a lecture of Shadowspawn I have to give right now to a group of head strong Accepted."

Karaul chuckles heartily, "I'm sure it shall be a joy. I remember having such lessons myself, although surely from a fairly different perspective." he grins, "I have but one more question to ask Sedai. I am interested in attending some of these lessons that go on about the tower, and was wondering if you could speak on my behalf?"

Coliena tilts her head, then nods, "I will speak to the Amyrlin about it myself, if you wish. You may have to take classes by yourself though, seeing as the Mistress of Novices has made it clear she wants none of the female students around you."

Karaul nods slowly, a hint of sadness on his face as he raises a hand, "That is not what I seek, for I merely wish to take advantage of what is around me, while I am still here." he sighs, "Thank you though Sedai." he says, bowing his head before returning his eyes to his book.

Coliena hmms, "Maybe you could take classes with the Trainees, yes? I will see what I can do."

Coliena stands up and starts towards the door with that said.

Karaul sighs, adding, "I seek knowledge beyond fighting, but I guess whatever I find will do." he says with a deep sigh, beginning his battle with the words again.